Boy Do I Hate This Place....

I am the powerpoint princess of my office - basically noone else can handle this arduous task, particularly once per month when we have to go bow and scrape before the investors to let them know where their money is going. Believe me, it's not going in my pockets or any of the pockets of the peeps I work with. So here we go, "you have to use your accrued PTO, one day per pay period", cost cutting (again) and maybe a restructure.

Ok, we all get that's it's shitty out there and that sacrifices have to be made, noone disputes that. HOWEVER...when you are laying OFF salesguys and then hiring NEW salesguys to take their place at increased costs, that is not saving money. When you contract with outside vendors to bring in leads so that your $100+K Salesguys have something to do, that is not saving money. When you beat on a vendor for a price for a website and then you contract some POOF from LA with the cool glasses and the project is STILL not done because he wants more money, that is not saving money. How can you ask ME to take my PTO as a cost cutting measure and then show me a spreadsheet with a $125K salary for a NEW SALES GUY...and you expect me to not react??

With all the shit flying around, when will people stop cutting the $10, $12 hourly worker who comes in on the weekends, puts in the OT and gets the job done and start sacking the slackers?? I'm so fucking tired of this CEO - and let me tell you , he knows only how to spend money - new laptop, new crackberry - esp when people who are actually producing the work are using 5 year old laptops - fly here and there...expensive dinner and wine on the company's tab with NO NEW BUSINESS TO SHOW FOR IT IN OVER 2 YEARS YOU F'N ASSHOLE. He's done nothing except increase the debt for this place and I for one, am extremely tired of it.

The BOREDOM....

Oh.My.God...I'm ready to just pack it up, I swear. I am so bored out of my skull at work that I am seriously thinking about just leaving and seeing if anyone will notice. I am not a person who can sit and do nothing for hours at a time, it pains me greatly. I've asked everyone for work, I've caught up on my filing, updated my process documents (in case I get laid off!), prepared for a Monday meeting and checked every blog, weather site and financial advice column I can find. I just don't know what else to do....obviously I'm thankful they are paying me to sit here and look good, whatever, but I'm losing my shit....singing along to iTunes - and fantasizing about warm weather vacations. I've been looking for a new job for months but noone's come knocking at my door (yet). I can't even go outside and walk around because we got a foot of snow on Monday and most of it is still on the road.

This is literally painful. Well, only 5.5 hours until American Idol Wildcard show!